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Wednesday, March 31, 2010 @ 2:16 AM

Labels: its been while nt hearing to tis song

Sunday, March 28, 2010 @ 5:26 PM

here sitting dwn at home for two solid days...

woh i criously cnnt survived...

n thinking abt sumtyn...

i tght i wud b stronger day by day

bt nope...im getting weaker

it may seem like bt criously i am nt

ma heart is totally closed..

nt for anibdy ...

at first i think i cud walk steadily like a toddler who strting to learn to walk

bt day by day

its tumbling dwn again n again

i dunnoe y ...

dun tell me im nt trying

I AM TRYING MA BEST

no matter hw hard i try ...

it remains stagnant...

making new frens ..yes i do

bt it just didnt werk it out 4 maself 2 nt think of u...

i just lied to maself n to u ...

who said

"u r slowly picking up urself nt like b4"

bt do u noe hw struggling i am now

do u noe tat?...

:'(

yes we r frens...like i said evrything changed nw..

i have to adapt...

hw i wish i cud run away as far as i can...

where memories cud b erased n yes u r just a stranger whom i saw b4

bt nt more than tat...

Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 11:49 PM

i think im not okay

with ma condition like tis....

Labels: i niidd a break from evrything

Monday, March 22, 2010 @ 11:22 PM

tday was so much relaxing at werk cos it a monday

n by ryte...

sc shud b closed so ya...

sempat open up ma fb account chat japs kt VSC

then b4 i went for ma break....

i received a msg from tis sumbdy....

i was tros blank...

asking for frgiveness ...

ma heart reallie dropped wen i read it...

it does nt stop at there

we cntinue msg till we r ok..

n yes we r both bz n i just tell

if he terngt me do msg me mit me ...

n ya he replied sure2,,,

haiz mate merah jap kt keje...

bt its ok...

i cn do it

like u said u cn c me pickin maself up slowly nt like b4

bt u dunnoe hw difficult it is....

k watever it is ...

its over...

i cnnt rely on u...

now a new fren i found who sumtymes i do look for is..

pul...haha...

tk mrh ehk lily...

he is the one i look up for now...

gd advisor

nt like his fren satu nie...

smngat 2 minit maggi jek...

bahxx...

jokin eh !

neh i just found tis pul mcm more softer than his fren...

n comfortable to tok to..tats is wat more imprtnt for me

Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 10:56 PM

just reaached home frm imm

firstly went to wdlands to play kite

then to cosway to have our dinner n buy prezzie for ma father

i was with ma third bro ,first bro kak linda n kak su wit the kids!

haha...so i spent ma whole weeks goinout...its was nice to have a break

since i was werking alle way n i didnt have much time for maself

n ya i dunnoe wat to say wen i saw u ysterday

altgh i do nth wrng bt then i feel like screamin ma lungs out

to say imy!!

bt nope...

i didnt look at ur face at all...

n great tk ckp hi ...

-_-"

wtever it is like wat he said

let bygones be bygones

cheh mcm phm lah ko dyeuh....

n guess wat i did sumtyn tday which is random bt yet im hepi wit it

onli tat i wan to chnge it to a smaller one asap!

brr...

i will b werking layter at 9...

dhlah tdi alek kul 6 am++

ouh bored!

tpi tkpe finishing at 4 n goin to twn to mit up wif ma 2 sis in law....

k i g2g

Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 11:15 AM

just woke up....

reached home around two PLUss pagy tdi

supposed to kua skodeng pul n woo~

tat is e plan lah bt tk jadi because

at first he said he kene overtime...

after tat he said tk jadi ot

n lastly he tk bwk kunci umah!

bt ya i was pretty mad bt nah....

tkpelah kan...

dun wanna brood over it...

at last plan was mit wit lily n pul

supposed to b at WCP n yet sumtyn emergency cropped up!

met them at bb jek...

sat at block 142...

biase bebual2...

then pul kol rul to mit hym wit two girls

which is 'sri' & 'wati'

huhuhuhu!

padehal tu actuallie kite lah ..

its just pul dun wan tell hym...

n i think ysterday was just ma luck...

first it was rul skejap jadi jap tk jadi

dh gytu mlm lily lak...

she supposed to find her ank sdre...

then tk jadi ...

i was like hw sway cn i be...

so ya we proceed to bustop nk go gombak lah ye

bt then si rulk dh otw....

so kite tunggu lah si deknie at last pul pun kene maki ngt kan

manenye sri n wati kan...

bt i want to apologise to lily first for his behavior..

he ntah lah ehk...

i still dun get his prangai yet

bt he is nice person cume

he gt tis habit gurau kasar sgt...

tat wat pul oso said wen he first time met rul...

so ya he said he try to chnge if can...

so mean while just dun tke it too hard....

lastly we had our so called supper at gombak...

bt then i tell u i dun have e appetite...

at last rul mkn nasi jek...the aym looked like mcm keras batu

pul mkn like a 1/4 share

me n lily ...

tk smpi 1/4 share pun

cos one thing the aym is wif e chilli n lily cnt eat tat

so ended up is like an interview session wit rul ...

while i n pul just listens to it...

bt a few mins lter

lily had to cos jas is fetching her n ya....

so left wit tis two guys...

so i gt the chnce to tok to pul

abt nursing n tis rul was lost..

so he kol his fren to teman hym

as he felt leftout...

ape nye org....

bebual2...

we went to 7-11

then cntinue lepakin at blk 369

dorg nyanyi dh mcm org tk btol...

phm2 yelah kan...

satu penat dari keje...

yg pul tktau...

k wat i cn say abt eh...

he is a nice guy...

criously he is like in a way more softer n undrstnd frm rul...

bkn nk kate ape ye lily...

tis is wat i thinks lah wen smlm bebual ngn die

arnd two thirty gytu we bergerak ..so

pul sent me dulu then rul n last hym lah

i wud like to say thnk u very much pul!!

Labels: giigit bru tau

Monday, March 08, 2010 @ 9:41 PM

woo im so so hepi tdy cos finallly got ma RED VANS SHOES n a Bright pink feathers headbnd for

ma cuzzie wedding...onli e headbnd eh nt the shoe as well

wee :D

n nseb lah tdy i off if nt i wud go to werk like a zombie..

bcos im still tired of e long walk ...frm wcp to telok blngah ...

hehe...

so tday woke up arnd 12+ n ya tros took ma shower

n went off to follow ma mum to find her shoe @westmall since ma niece nid to go to BB polyclinic....

then went to commonwealth as ma mum nk li kelape...

n im rushing bck home as i wanna go out wit ma sis in law to IMM

n pass sumtyn to hym...

n he gave a teka teki to solve...which i oso no idea lah...

kucing meow..harimau ape?

i kasi u smpi bsk...

*scratch head*

i like pernah dgr tat riddle bt i stil no idea lor...

watever it is...tmrw im werking...

hmm until thurs n i will like NA until nxt week...

woo~

k i g2g ma nephew is like nagging at me as he wanna use it

like father like son ehk...

assalamualaikum sume...

Labels: smiling widely

Sunday, March 07, 2010 @ 10:33 PM

ma eyes r really droopy now...

just reached home tis morning at 7++am gytu

ape tk dari smlm keje 12-9 beh blek kua ...

wen go home get to sleep oni for a few hours cos i nid to go gylng to tke ma bju for abg sdre wedding tis weekend...

met hym ysterday again...

its just a random outing since last thurs u cudnt make it for e supper

n u said sat ..

n i thgt u wudnt remember it bt u did...

hmmm.

n met at j.e central n off we went to WCP since i like i wan it so bad to go there

n ya bt pity

we do a crazy thing we walk frm wcp to go keppel bay..

at last we due pancit at telok blngah n so decided

to tke first bus home..

he totally knocked off in e bus...

we talk n laugh wit our stories....

n wat most shock is...

wen we were small...we live in the same vicinity at henderson...same block sumore

like its really a small werl

ma frens noes hym...

but e msg u sent me at FB is still hanging brader...

try asking hym eh tis cumin sat...

i noe some of his frens...

bahxx...

Labels: hmm so wat issit...

Friday, March 05, 2010 @ 9:12 PM

hello guys been bz werking...nn ya i left ma blog without updating it...

bkn tu jek....cos ma lappy oso been saket n dwn...

n nie pun bru recover...

e previous days pun i borrowed ipod touch from azlynno n check ma FB...

n im shocked to get a msg in ma FB inbox frm hym...

bahxx...

untill now i still dunnoe wat r u trying to ssay...

dyeah.... i admit it i love u dyeah...

ape mksud tu...

wen i ask hym...die tk jwb ...

n like pnggil me dear lak plak skrg...

like different gytu...

k nvm just c n observe...

tmrw will be e last day for BODY WORLDS...

yeah yeah yeah!!!

bt a new exhibition will be opening on ma birthday itself...

1st april,PIXAR...

OUH EM GEEs!

twenty yeears old...

n paramore is cuming to spore... which i was nt updated

tats means i have nt much time like i used to update maself wen life strts werking

nvm ....

last sat went out wit ma sis for her gathering wit her old sch mates

at marina..

im so lost i tell u...

they r like all married n gelaran mummies n daddies

while i like...

just a teenager...

bt nseb ade kak nie open lah kan...tok to me

rather i wa left out alone....

Labels: alice in wonderland

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Wednesday, March 31, 2010 @ 2:16 AM Labels: its been while nt hearing to tis song back to top?
Sunday, March 28, 2010 @ 5:26 PM here sitting dwn at home for two solid days... woh i criously cnnt survived... n thinking abt sumtyn... i tght i wud b stronger day by day bt nope...im getting weaker it may seem like bt criously i am nt ma heart is totally closed.. nt for anibdy ... at first i think i cud walk steadily like a toddler who strting to learn to walk bt day by day its tumbling dwn again n again i dunnoe y ... dun tell me im nt trying I AM TRYING MA BEST no matter hw hard i try ... it remains stagnant... making new frens ..yes i do bt it just didnt werk it out 4 maself 2 nt think of u... i just lied to maself n to u ... who said "u r slowly picking up urself nt like b4" bt do u noe hw struggling i am now do u noe tat?... :'( yes we r frens...like i said evrything changed nw.. i have to adapt... hw i wish i cud run away as far as i can... where memories cud b erased n yes u r just a stranger whom i saw b4 bt nt more than tat... back to top?
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 11:49 PM i think im not okay with ma condition like tis.... Labels: i niidd a break from evrything back to top?
Monday, March 22, 2010 @ 11:22 PM tday was so much relaxing at werk cos it a monday n by ryte... sc shud b closed so ya... sempat open up ma fb account chat japs kt VSC then b4 i went for ma break.... i received a msg from tis sumbdy.... i was tros blank... asking for frgiveness ... ma heart reallie dropped wen i read it... it does nt stop at there we cntinue msg till we r ok.. n yes we r both bz n i just tell if he terngt me do msg me mit me ... n ya he replied sure2,,, haiz mate merah jap kt keje... bt its ok... i cn do it like u said u cn c me pickin maself up slowly nt like b4 bt u dunnoe hw difficult it is.... k watever it is ... its over... i cnnt rely on u... now a new fren i found who sumtymes i do look for is.. pul...haha... tk mrh ehk lily... he is the one i look up for now... gd advisor nt like his fren satu nie... smngat 2 minit maggi jek... bahxx... jokin eh ! neh i just found tis pul mcm more softer than his fren... n comfortable to tok to..tats is wat more imprtnt for me back to top?
Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 10:56 PM just reaached home frm imm firstly went to wdlands to play kite then to cosway to have our dinner n buy prezzie for ma father i was with ma third bro ,first bro kak linda n kak su wit the kids! haha...so i spent ma whole weeks goinout...its was nice to have a break since i was werking alle way n i didnt have much time for maself n ya i dunnoe wat to say wen i saw u ysterday altgh i do nth wrng bt then i feel like screamin ma lungs out to say imy!! bt nope... i didnt look at ur face at all... n great tk ckp hi ... -_-" wtever it is like wat he said let bygones be bygones cheh mcm phm lah ko dyeuh.... n guess wat i did sumtyn tday which is random bt yet im hepi wit it onli tat i wan to chnge it to a smaller one asap! brr... i will b werking layter at 9... dhlah tdi alek kul 6 am++ ouh bored! tpi tkpe finishing at 4 n goin to twn to mit up wif ma 2 sis in law.... k i g2g back to top?
Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 11:15 AM just woke up.... reached home around two PLUss pagy tdi supposed to kua skodeng pul n woo~ tat is e plan lah bt tk jadi because at first he said he kene overtime... after tat he said tk jadi ot n lastly he tk bwk kunci umah! bt ya i was pretty mad bt nah.... tkpelah kan... dun wanna brood over it... at last plan was mit wit lily n pul supposed to b at WCP n yet sumtyn emergency cropped up! met them at bb jek... sat at block 142... biase bebual2... then pul kol rul to mit hym wit two girls which is 'sri' & 'wati' huhuhuhu! padehal tu actuallie kite lah .. its just pul dun wan tell hym... n i think ysterday was just ma luck... first it was rul skejap jadi jap tk jadi dh gytu mlm lily lak... she supposed to find her ank sdre... then tk jadi ... i was like hw sway cn i be... so ya we proceed to bustop nk go gombak lah ye bt then si rulk dh otw.... so kite tunggu lah si deknie at last pul pun kene maki ngt kan manenye sri n wati kan... bt i want to apologise to lily first for his behavior.. he ntah lah ehk... i still dun get his prangai yet bt he is nice person cume he gt tis habit gurau kasar sgt... tat wat pul oso said wen he first time met rul... so ya he said he try to chnge if can... so mean while just dun tke it too hard.... lastly we had our so called supper at gombak... bt then i tell u i dun have e appetite... at last rul mkn nasi jek...the aym looked like mcm keras batu pul mkn like a 1/4 share me n lily ... tk smpi 1/4 share pun cos one thing the aym is wif e chilli n lily cnt eat tat so ended up is like an interview session wit rul ... while i n pul just listens to it... bt a few mins lter lily had to cos jas is fetching her n ya.... so left wit tis two guys... so i gt the chnce to tok to pul abt nursing n tis rul was lost.. so he kol his fren to teman hym as he felt leftout... ape nye org.... bebual2... we went to 7-11 then cntinue lepakin at blk 369 dorg nyanyi dh mcm org tk btol... phm2 yelah kan... satu penat dari keje... yg pul tktau... k wat i cn say abt eh... he is a nice guy... criously he is like in a way more softer n undrstnd frm rul... bkn nk kate ape ye lily... tis is wat i thinks lah wen smlm bebual ngn die arnd two thirty gytu we bergerak ..so pul sent me dulu then rul n last hym lah i wud like to say thnk u very much pul!! Labels: giigit bru tau back to top?
Monday, March 08, 2010 @ 9:41 PM woo im so so hepi tdy cos finallly got ma RED VANS SHOES n a Bright pink feathers headbnd for ma cuzzie wedding...onli e headbnd eh nt the shoe as well wee :D n nseb lah tdy i off if nt i wud go to werk like a zombie.. bcos im still tired of e long walk ...frm wcp to telok blngah ... hehe... so tday woke up arnd 12+ n ya tros took ma shower n went off to follow ma mum to find her shoe @westmall since ma niece nid to go to BB polyclinic.... then went to commonwealth as ma mum nk li kelape... n im rushing bck home as i wanna go out wit ma sis in law to IMM n pass sumtyn to hym... n he gave a teka teki to solve...which i oso no idea lah... kucing meow..harimau ape? i kasi u smpi bsk... scratch head i like pernah dgr tat riddle bt i stil no idea lor... watever it is...tmrw im werking... hmm until thurs n i will like NA until nxt week... woo~ k i g2g ma nephew is like nagging at me as he wanna use it like father like son ehk... assalamualaikum sume... Labels: smiling widely back to top?
Sunday, March 07, 2010 @ 10:33 PM ma eyes r really droopy now... just reached home tis morning at 7++am gytu ape tk dari smlm keje 12-9 beh blek kua ... wen go home get to sleep oni for a few hours cos i nid to go gylng to tke ma bju for abg sdre wedding tis weekend... met hym ysterday again... :) its just a random outing since last thurs u cudnt make it for e supper n u said sat .. n i thgt u wudnt remember it bt u did... hmmm. n met at j.e central n off we went to WCP since i like i wan it so bad to go there n ya bt pity we do a crazy thing we walk frm wcp to go keppel bay.. at last we due pancit at telok blngah n so decided to tke first bus home.. he totally knocked off in e bus... we talk n laugh wit our stories.... n wat most shock is... wen we were small...we live in the same vicinity at henderson...same block sumore like its really a small werl ma frens noes hym... but e msg u sent me at FB is still hanging brader... try asking hym eh tis cumin sat... i noe some of his frens... bahxx... Labels: hmm so wat issit... back to top?
Friday, March 05, 2010 @ 9:12 PM hello guys been bz werking...nn ya i left ma blog without updating it... bkn tu jek....cos ma lappy oso been saket n dwn... n nie pun bru recover... e previous days pun i borrowed ipod touch from azlynno n check ma FB... n im shocked to get a msg in ma FB inbox frm hym... bahxx... untill now i still dunnoe wat r u trying to ssay... dyeah.... i admit it i love u dyeah... ape mksud tu... wen i ask hym...die tk jwb ... n like pnggil me dear lak plak skrg... like different gytu... k nvm just c n observe... tmrw will be e last day for BODY WORLDS... yeah yeah yeah!!! bt a new exhibition will be opening on ma birthday itself... 1st april,PIXAR... OUH EM GEEs! twenty yeears old... n paramore is cuming to spore... which i was nt updated tats means i have nt much time like i used to update maself wen life strts werking nvm .... last sat went out wit ma sis for her gathering wit her old sch mates at marina.. im so lost i tell u... they r like all married n gelaran mummies n daddies while i like... just a teenager... bt nseb ade kak nie open lah kan...tok to me rather i wa left out alone.... Labels: alice in wonderland back to top?