
@ 1:36 PM
its wednesday, so im applying for half day on fri...
making cookies since mum asked to....
so had a chat with ainn...
ouh well she said if i already in a r/s for a year plus
u wud think of the future with the person as u feel secured with ur love...
well yestrday had a small argument
ouh well psl ape lgikkn kalau psl time...
yesh im angry bt like i said theres no use if i cntinue it
cos it will bring me to no where...
cos tats ur werk n i just need to understnd it...
ouh well i tried bt sumtyme no matter hw hrd u tried oso cnnt ...so yah...
n ya im glad u think of the future ahead being with me
i do sumtymes bt i have alot of things r running thru my mind...
cos for me im still nt stable yet....
i have still long way to go...
with tis job im ok with it bt the salary its not good...
tats y i dunnoe if i shud chnge job or stay thru n next year get my diploma...
i wanna mke my parents happy though...
bt with this kind of salary hw to?
yes criously wt i cn c in my family....
my bros cnnt be dependent on especially the first...
except for 2nd cos they do not have children
im e only girl n i wanna b a filial daughter to them...
they r getting older...
n i wann to c them enjying their life happily without any
unhappiness n sufferings...
gosh im crying ryte now....
im slowly chnging to better strting praying
insyallah ....
tats y eventgh i look happy n cheerful
i have alot of things inside my mind...
welll evrybdy has a problem...
its just tat i dunnoe hw to approach at time to telll my
bros hw i feel cos im e youngest n
i just dun feel i have e right...
haish...
wt i feel is its all abt the money2
without money u cnnt buy a house food n etc...
y cn't it b just evolve with love....
just peace n love without have trouble finding money
money is like evrything nw....
*bigsigh*
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